Hey Scott, I've been on a controlled bulk for the past couple months and my weight has went up from 80 to 84kg or 185lbs, which seems like a decent enough progress. Thing is, I'm starting to get bothered by those intrusive thoughts saying that my body fat levels are already getting too high and I should do something about it whenever out of clothes whilst still not being happy with my current overall size either so naturally, this has put me in a rather conflicting position of opposing ideals.
What I truly fear here is that by dropping my caloric intake slightly in order to shed off some fat, I'll be making it utterly impossible to gain any more muscle due to how difficult it is for me to build it without an abundant caloric supply. Even on such a high calorie diet, at least for my personal standards, I already struggle with low energy levels on frequent occasion and I own this acute mental disturbance that if I don't eat something whenever a feeling of hunger is manifested, I'll be entering a full fledged catabolic state shortly afterwards. Crazy I know but it's just one of several reasoning deficiencies which obsessing with your body can cause if you let things slip out of hand.
Anyway, taking into account the pictures below, should I go on a moderate cutting phase for the next 6-8 weeks or so? Like I've said, I'm not happy with my size, mainly on the chest department but I'm even less satisfied for the fact that some of my previously noticeable muscle definition has been nearly lost. And seriously, what the heck is wrong with my chest from the side profile? Is it supposed to be that flat after years of intensive training or do I just have terrible pec genetics?