First of all this is probably a huge debbie downer post, but I am just feeling in the dumps lately. I still workout hard, trying to hit personal PR's and such. However, my body still seems to be adjusting to my new work schedule and its been almost three months. I work 12:30-9p.m. at a hospital. I have to leave my house at 11:30a.m. and dont get back till after 10p.m. most nights, also occasional on call weekends. I am not always guaranteed a lunch and thats another problem. Before this job I was so strict with hitting my macros, now I am just trying to eat what I can, when I can, but all within decent nutrition sources.
I feel I am being way too hard on myself which can be a gift to keep me going like I have been for years, however I am not comfortable on how I look and worry too much about what others may think. My poor girlfriend has to hear me continously bash myself and be so hard on myself. THe main things are my quads/hams/calves and stomach. I kill my legs yet genetics seem to beat me. I have a 4 pack, but the lower abs just wont come through and always feeling bloated even when waking up.
How can I get on the right page with my diet since IM not alway guaranteed a break most days at work? I wake up at 7a.m. as it is and feel i have to try and cram food down my throat in 4 hours, by the time I get home its after 10p.m. and i go straight to bed. Whats best for legs? High volume? Should I be concerned about how much weight im pushing? I laid off the squats due to tenderness and pain in the knees. (My knees down pass my toes, and ive had a few peeps look at my form, seems great). I have resorted to leg press, bulgarian split squats, lunges, and dead lifts for alternatives.
I am just so motivated in the gym, but my life outside the gym and making things difficult. Sorry this post is all over the place, Im typing a mile a minute lol. Thanks guys.